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David Crosby "If Only I Could Remember My Name" (1971)
Track Listing: Music Is Love/ Cowboy Movie/ Tampalpais High [At About Three]/ Laughing// What Are Their Names?/ Traction In The Rain/ Song With No Words [Tree With No Leaves]/ Orleans/ I’d Swear There Was Somebody Here (UK and US tracklisting)
A Now Complete List Of CSN/Y and Solo Articles Available To Read At Alan’s Album Archives:
'Crosby, Stills and Nash' (1969) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-29-crosby-stills-and-nash-1969.html
'Deja Vu' (CSNY) (1970) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-34-crosby-stills-nash-and-young.html
‘Stephen Stills’ (1970) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2012/12/stephen-stills-1970.html
'If Only I Could Remember My Name' (Crosby) (1971) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-45-david-crosby-if-only-i-could.html
'Songs For Beginners' (Nash) (1971) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-46-graham-nash-songs-for.html
'Stephen Stills II' (1971) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-48-stephen-stills-ii-1971.html
'Deja Vu Live' (CD) (2008) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/08/news-views-and-music-issue-1-crosby.html
'Deja Vu Live' (DVD) (2008) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008_09_21_archive.html
'Reflections' (Graham Nash Box Set) (2009) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2009/02/news-views-and-music-issue-22-graham.html
'Demos' (CSN) (2009) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2009/08/news-views-and-music-issue-41-crosby.html
'Manassas: Pieces' (2010) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2010/01/news-views-and-music-issue-52-manassas.html
‘Carry On’ (Stephen Stills Box Set) (2013) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/stephen-stills-carry-on-box-set-2013.html
'Croz' (Crosby) (2014) http://www.alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/david-crosby-croz-2014album-review.html
Following Stills and Young's early solo albums into
the shops, stakes were high for what Crosby (and Nash, releasing his first solo
record mere weeks later) had to offer. While Neil had already made a name of
changing characters on his albums as often as he changed his socks and Stills
had typically packed everything into a ten-song collection that went somewhere
different with each track, Crosby's album was always going to be that little
bit different. Freed of the need to 'fit' into a format (even as loose a format
as CSNY), some expected radical jazz tunings without any regard for rules -
others a collection of daring provocative songs like 'Triad', the song that had
seen Croz finally kicked out of the Byrds. Some expected a folk-rock
masterpiece like 'Guinevere', others hard stomping rock like 'Almost Cut My
Hair', yet more political remnants like 'Long Time Gone'. 'If Only I Could
Remember My Name' features all of these various aspects of Crosby's craft, but
unlike Stephen 'Captain Manyhands' Stills this isn't an attempt to catch all
the sides of Crosby's character (that would take a box set!) but all the things
on his mind across 1971: disintegrating bands, disintegrating relationships,
disintegrating America. With looks to Crosby's past ('Tampalpais High', long
thought to be about the mountain, is actually about a high school Crosby
attended before being kicked out and is a celebration of day's end when he
could chat up girls!), the present ('Cowboy Movie' is the CSNY split of 1970
re-told as high drama) and the future ('Music Is Love'), there's no other
single record that contains quite as much full-on Crosby as this record, an album
that's special for many because it has a sound quite unlike any other record
from any other time (perhaps because Crosby won't record a follow-up for 18
years, by which time most everything in his life - including the technology he
made records with - has changed).
While Jefferson Airplane's Paul Kantner was busy
playing with the concept of outer space on the previous album on this list
(editor's note: his exquisite 'Blows Against The Empire', which was indeed the
album before this one when our original 101 'core' AAA album reviews were
listed chronologically), David Crosby was busy assembling the same cast of
players for quite a different sounding album. This record, like 'Blows' and
Nash's 'Songs For Beginners' was made with the cast of characters from various
San Francisco area bands, who dubbed themselves the 'Planet Earth Rock and Roll
Orchestra' (that surely was a Kantner title!) who did a 'CSN' and came
together, helping each other out on various albums that were all being made at
the same time. All three of these albums - featuring various members of the
Airplane, CSNY families and the Grateful Dead as well as passing extras like
Joni Mitchell - are superb in their own ways, music being made not for
deadlines or for record sales but for friendship, art and mayhem. Like 'Blows'
'If Only' is meticulously cast with friends like Graham Nash, Neil Young, Jerry
Garcia, Paul Kantner and Grace Slick all being 'used' where their brilliance
shines the brightest. On no other record can you hear two of the greatest
guitarists of the 20th century - Jerry and Neil - play against each other (as
they do on 'Cowboy Movie'). On no other record can you hear a chorus made up of
a San Franciscan edition of 'whose who' (or at least a 'guess who') of San Francisco all chiming in on politics
so cutting and words so personal it's a wonder Nixon's ears didn't bleed ('What
Are Their Names?') While 'Blows' is an Airplane/Starship family record with a
strong Crosby bent and 'Beginners' a neat CSNY family record that uses the Dead
rhythm section, however, 'If Only' really does sound like a compendium of the
three band's main styles. The lyrics and harmonies are of course pure CSNY, but
the extended running times and loose jazzy feel is more like a Dead record,
with the slightly hazy and sloganeering lyrics more something the Jeffersons
would do. The answer to what Crosby would do on his first solo album is this:
he sketches his songs in a stark black and white and gets his friends to
embellish them with wonderful colours of their own.
Even compared to Crosby’s other equally inventive,
original and uncompromisingly off-the-wall material, If Only I Could
Remember My Name holds a particularly worshipped place in the great man’s
canon. One third of it is full of gorgeous, wordless (but not voiceless)
instrumentals, one third of it is gorgeous lyrical epic balladry and one third
of it is powerful heavy rocking. We’d heard albums that were a bit like all
three of these styles before now, but hearing these styles together this album
is just so off the beaten track that it is hard to know what to make of it. After
all, a full three songs on this album are instrumentals - not jazz
instrumentals or folk covers either but wordless vocal chants from several
multi-dubbed Crosbys that amazingly seem to tell as full a story as the songs
with lyrics. The actual 'songs' are ethereal even by Crosby's standards, songs
so light and fragile that they sound like a spell about to break. 'Laughing' is
one of the greatest of all Crosby compositions, a song that tries hard to look
for all the answers but is mistaken every time a solution seems to appear,
wrapped up in a note-perfect performance that unites grief (Garcia's powerful
pedal steel at its best) with soulful hope (Joni Mitchell's single greatest vocal,
counting all her own albums). 'Traction In The Rain' is sheer poetry, taking
baby steps towards righting a wrong that can never be righted. And 'Music Is
Love', an improvised jazzy solo jam 'kidnapped by Nash and Young and overdubbed
into a proper song to make sure the less prolific Crosby didn't throw such a
magical scrap away, is the song everyone thinks CSNY albums are like: exquisite
uplifting, harmony-laden pieces of hippie serenity. This is a record of
extremes, though, cut at a turbulent time in Crosby's life, with equally
forceful hard-hitting rock songs, fiercer even than 'Almost Cut My Hair'.
'Cowboy Movie' doesn't let up for a single second in its eight minutes as it's
awkward angular stomp careers out of control. 'What Are Their Names?' , meanwhile,
mixes the anger of 'Ohio' with the wrath of 'Long Time Gone', a moody guitar
jam improvisation slotted together perfectly with an earlier lyric that gives
greedy power-hungry tyrannical rulers one of the strongest musical slaps in the
face until Neil tries to 'Impeach The President' in 2006 (this is the album
with the famous inner-sleeve, of Crosby in the bathroom holding a gun-shaped
American flag to his head). If you can find any other album with that many
facets going on at once then either you've been listening to 'The Beatles'
White Album' (deliberately designed to cover as much ground as possible)
'Stephen Stills' (Stills likes pulling off stunts like that) or your stereo's
on the blink and it's actually playing your whole record collection at once.
One thing that surprised many when this album came
out was how melancholy it sounded. CSNY
were no more – temporally as it turned out, but it seemed permanent at the time-
and not withstanding the recent success of 'Stephen Stills' and 'After The Goldrush'
Crosby can't have known he had a 'future'. After all if he's really wanted to
go solo after being kicked out The Byrds he could have done - but this was the
first time he'd had a whole record to fill by himself after six years as a
musician. The musical tide that had been cushioning and supporting Crosby and
his colleagues for so long – that thinking hard enough could change the world
and that music and politics didn’t just sit well together, they directly
impacted on each other – wasn't quite dead in 1971 but was dying, thanks in
part to the break-up of both CSNY and the Beatles (a fact officially announced
by both groups just months apart in that year) and their unlikely unsavoury
replacements: glam rock and prog rock. Musical audiences were left largely on
their own to confront the brave and rather unsteady road of the early 70s and
for the first few years of the decade still felt slightly betrayed by the fact
that CSNY and bands like them promised them a new world made of peace but then
couldn't even get it together long enough to stay in the same room as each
other. While many fans stay loyal and buy records by all four, a lot of the
more general music audience simply moves on to the next big them (which if
you're British means Slade - shudder - and if you're American means David
Cassidy - bigger shudder). America was also going through heady days: far from
ending Vietnam protests of 1969-70 seemed to have escalated it and Nixon, a
year away from re-election, was enjoying comfortable gallup poll predictions
despite a seemingly unending list of bumbling country-wrecking mistakes
perpetrated by Richard Nixon. In this context there was no chance that the
world was going to get the peaceful hippie slumber fest they perhaps expected;
instead Crosby's album is by turns darker, edgier, moodier and more paranoid
than that. An artist pre-occupied with the outside world more than most, Crosby
accurately reflects the feeling of hopelessness and heavyness of 1971 as well
as he and his two friends mirrored the hope and tranquillity of 1969.
However the main reason Crosby sounds crushed on so
many parts of this album - why the weight of the surroundings so often seems
suffocating compared to Crosby's general positive outlook and soaring
arms-out-to-the-sky vocals is personal tragedy. His long term girlfriend
Christine Hinton, the one person who had stuck by Crosby through and through
after and sometimes alongside short-lived romances with the likes of Joni
Mitchell, died suddenly, awfully and tragically in a car crash. Hinton was due
to take her poorly cat to a vets for a check-up; onlookers say the car veered
off the road suddenly, suggesting the pet got free. Without her family around
to identify the body, it fell to Crosby - who'd waved her off just hours before
- to do just that and his close friends say he was never the same afterwards.
After years of believing the best in people, that hard times would be followed
by good and that his story would always have a happy ending eventually somehow,
Crosby suddenly has to grow up just at the point when Crosby has finally
achieved the success he's craved and a body of work to be proud of - and he
plainly doesn't want to. While other factors inevitably became involved too,
it's here that Crosby's addictions begin to spiral ever so slightly out of control,
his paranoid hackles raised enough to start carrying a hand-gun around with
him; his drugs no longer a hobby but little by little a crutch that allows him
to cope. As late as 1998 (maybe later) he's still writing songs for Christine,
emotionally powerful songs about his struggle to grieve properly for her even
after a quarter century has passed. However what's interesting is how few
reviews of the time picked up on this. Christine's death wasn't widely reported
and it's significance was probably under-estimated (she wasn't Crosby's only
girlfriend of the time and Crosby was already father to several children dotted
around America ever since his pre-Byrds days - but until Jan Dance comes onto
the scene at the end of the 1970s their relationship was by far their longest
lasting). When a similar thing happened to Neil (divorce and the death of his
right-hand man Danny Whitten) his songs became darker, harder, angrier. Even
partner Graham will go through a similar experience while making his
hardest-edged album 'Wild Tales' (inspired by the murder of his girlfriend Amy
by her own brother - the CSNY story really is stranger than fiction). However
'My Name' isn't a particularly angry record (well, only on the delightful
Nixon-bashing 'What Are Their Names?') and the hard edges come through more as
claustrophobia than aggression or denial. Instead this is a questioning album
even by Crosby standards, asking 'why?' and trying desperately to come to terms
with grief and loss (especially the improvised title track, the closest Crosby
ever comes to saying anything about her despite being a wordless vocal
instrumental). Not un-coincidentally, Crosby is on startling form throughout
the record, investing both the one-take raw rockers and overdubbed pristine
vocal chants with soul and power, his performance never better as his grief,
his sympathetic musician friends and his muse all connect for an album that
many people rate as a favourite for some very good reasons.
More than anything else, this record is loved
because it's a deeply spiritual record. The world was shocked when Pope Francis
recently announced his top ten music albums with this album as high as #2 in the Vatican's official newspaper L'Osservatore Romano
(the winner was The Beatles' Revolver', suggesting both that the fab four are
forgiven for saying The Beatles were bigger than Jesus and that his holiness is
an AAA reader!) Surely not the world
cried - some drugged out hippie spouting left-leaning politics at one with (at
least the West's) biggest religious institution? But to me that makes perfect
sense: this is an album that cries out for love, struggles to overcome ego and
become a better person, looks for answers without ever quite finding them and
ultimately ends up in what centuries ago would be assumed to be a choral mass
of comfort and grief over death. While my bible studying days are long behind
me thankfully (I don't trust any institution that tells me what to think and
dismisses over institutions without comment based on nothing else but faith - a
personal and individual feeling that can never be taught or passed onto others,
only absorbed) I know why those who like would find 'religion' here, even
though Crosby himself isn't a believer. Nine parables about love and life, each
with questions and answers (and even the closest Crosby ever came to a
religious song - the traditional 'Orleans', taught to him by Jefferson
Airplane's Paul Kantner) gives this album some personal character and feeling
that even The Pope can't get from anywhere else (interestingly 'Revolver'
doesn't have quite the same spiritual appeal, although there is a similar sense
of all-encompassing roundedness). Just look at that title again too: Crosby
isn't 'alone' on his life's path for vast swathes of the record, although his
searching narrators are never quite able to tie down what is there. Is it the ghost of a loved one, kept safe in
the afterlife? (as per the title track). A spiritual light guiding Crosby down
a particular path he keeps getting distracted from (as per 'Laughing'?) Is it
the heavy mob out to rule the world with big brother claws that see and hear
everything (as per 'What Are Their Names?' If these un-named people aren't the
'devil' I don't know what is). Or are they the unseen loved ones pulling Crosby
ever onwards, helping him find 'Traction In The Rain'? Or perhaps Pope Francis just loves music made
in the area of San Francisco - named after the saint he took his papal name
from!
The album cover says a lot too. One of Gary Burden's
greatest designs, it features a merged cover of Crosby shot on a 'soft focus'
16mm frame by professional photographer Robert Hammer (Crosby knew all about
cameras - his dad worked on films and his own interest will spill over into the
song 'Camera' on CSN's 1994 album 'After The Storm') merged with another shot
of a San Franciscan Bay sunset. The way the sun shines just South of Crosby's
eye makes it look as if he's shedding a tear, perhaps for his lost love or
perhaps all those un-fulfilled 1960s dreams fading into the rear view mirror.
However the cover isn't wholly sad: like the record it's ambiguous enough to be
about 're-birth' too - a sunrise as much as a sunset. Along with the sweet 'photo
gallery' of all those who played on the album (check out David's elder brother
Ethan Crosby who is the spitting image of him down to the moustache and wide
open singing mouth and Neil Young proudly standing in front of a sketch of
Crosby a fan had painted and which hung in his living room for years! If you're
wondering why future manager and record boss David Geffen looks a bit wet, by
the way, it's because he was thrown into a swimming pool as a mischievous
'stipulation' for the re-signing of a contract!) it's one of the better and
classier CSNY family designs, with a lot of thought (and a lot of listening!)
clearly having taken place.
You can tell a lot about the inventiveness of an
album by how well it was received at the time compared to how its revered years
later: this album has a huge critical backlash in 1971, the first really bad as
opposed to simply grudging reviews any CSN-related album had had up to that
time. Yet nowadays, the short-sightedness of contemporary reviewers seems odd:
this album now has a reputation for being one of the high points of American
singer-songwriter music of the 1970s. Don’t just take my word for this album’s
re-evaluation either: this album frequently gets high mentions in ‘greatest
album’ polls, even if the public at large have never heard of it (its most
often either bubbling under or just in the top 100, higher if polls stick to
the 60s and 70s in general – to put that in context, this puts it with such
well known bed-fellows as Brothers In Arms, Hotel California and even
Deja Vu on occasions). Called ‘self-indulgent’ when it came out, thanks to
its wordless Crosby choirs, long slow fade-ins and high quota of instrumentals,
this album is actually anything but – nobody else but Crosby would dream of
filling up a ‘solo’ record with so many famous guests playing under his
leadership (well, maybe Ringo, but the two don’t really compare). Like all good hosts Crosby doesn't hog the
conversation despite being the common reason why everyone's entered into the
conversation: all his musician friends get the chance to shine using their
characters, not creating something Crosby asked them to come up with or
dictated to them. 'If Only' shouldn't really be called a 'solo' work at all,
but an ensemble piece played by one of the greatest bands that ever was. Several
things stand out in the memory long after the record is last played and they
mainly feature other people - the hastily assembled dozen-strong choir on What
Are Their Names?, the Garcia v
Young duets on Cowboy Movie and Joni Mitchell’s prettiest singing
over the bridge of Laughing. Even
so, this is Crosby’s album all the way – no one else can make such unworldly,
unusual songs sound so beautiful and natural and Crosby’s voice is in stunning
form throughout, whether singing alone and fragile-like or multi-tracked for a
full onslaught of the senses.
Odder than the Byrds, more subdued and less hopeful than
CSNY and completely at odds with everything going on in American music of the
time, Name is an extraordinary record, a one-off mixture of the brave
and the beautiful, the muted and the overpowering, the un-listenable and the
accessible, the seemingly throwaway and the most important songs you might ever
be privileged enough to hear. Signalling the beginning of the end of Crosby’s
unbelievably creative phase between 1968-71 (two CSN albums, a Crosby-Nash
album and this solo work, plus lots of later-period Byrds songs and unreleased
material—he won’t write this much material again until his 1990s CPR days), it
would take a mammoth 18 years before Croz released another solo album. After
years of being seen as one of the chief spokespersons of his generation, the
uncompromising king of the counter-culture always ready with a witty quote and
an intelligent argument for hippie themes, Crosby turned inward, distancing
himself from anything except his music and drugs, an order that was to switch
in importance several times over the next decade or so, never quite reaching
the peak he gained here and on the first CSN and CSNY albums again despite
several close tries along the way. While I'm not as sure as other CSNY fans
that it's the greatest things to ever have Crosby's name attached to it
('Crosby, Stills and Nash' 'Deja Vu' 'CSN', possibly 'Wind On The Water' and
maybe even The Byrds' 'Notorious Byrd Brothers' makes for very tough
competition) it is another ridiculously strong CSNY record from a time when the
four members could do no wrong, without a single bad track on it. Thanks to a
combination of friends, drugs, grief and inspiration 'If Only I Could Remember
My Name' is an incredible album from one of the most incredible, important and
certainly one of the most under-rated musicians that ever lived; a special
record from a truly special writer that truly sounds like no other album ever
made.
The
Songs:
Album opener [53] Music Is Love isn’t that impressive as a
stand-alone song, but when you learn about its history this track’s quiet
simplicity is staggering. A two-minute snatch of Crosby messing around on an
acoustic guitar while rehearsing for another song entirely was ‘hijacked’ by
then-still partners Graham Nash and Neil Young, who were amazed at how their
partner dismissed this piece after doodling it and intended to throw it away.
Young, a musician well known for being a prolific writer who often wrote four
songs a week at a time when Crosby sometimes wrote only four a year, confessed
once that he could easily have written an album’s worth of songs based around
an idea that Crosby would casually dismiss. Without Cros’ knowledge, the two
men – for some reason avoiding any contact with Stills who was either busy
recording, being cross-patchy or both – overdubbed bongos, extra guitar parts
and slightly off-key harmonies onto the tape and handed it back to their friend
as a fait accompli, telling him that ‘this is going on your solo LP - or else’.
The sleeve-notes to the CSN box have Crosby tell us that ‘ I learned a long
time ago that it doesn’t pay to say no to either Nash or Neil’ and, grudgingly,
he used the song as the opener of the album. Rough and unfinished as it is,
there’s a charm about Music Is Love that makes you feel indebted to Nash
and Young for rescuing it off the cutting room floor and even if the sentiments
of the song sound a little bit like the ‘idiot guide’ to David Crosby’ it’s the
perfect acoustic scene-setting introduction to the album.
[54a] Cowboy Movie
quickly shows the other side of Crosby, despite sounding equally hurried and
raw. An eight-minute electric epic with various members of the Jefferson
Airplane and Grateful Dead helping out plus Neil Young rocking at their
hardest, its a close cousin to Crosby’s De Ja Vu contribution Almost
Cut My Hair, offering us the chance to hear this most note-perfect singer
at his rawest and loosest. Like its sister song, the vocal on this track truly
makes the piece, with Crosby hanging out the words to dry and squeezing every
last ounce of passion out of them, getting excitingly off-key in the process.
The title of this song suggests it will be a simple catch-all Western film
plot, one we’ve heard several times before, and on one level it is - telling
the story of how a maiden betrays her lover to the law and puts him and his
outlaw colleagues in danger. What Crosby didn’t reveal till many years later,
however, is that this song was written as an allegory for a set of rather more
‘real’ outlaws: CSNY. Cowboy Movie ushers in a long history of CSN songs
talking about each other (A list that will include Do For The Others (Stills
on Crosby), Into The Darkness and Glass And Steel (Nash on
Crosby’s drug addiction), Only Love Can Break Your Heart (Young on
Nash), Cocaine Eyes and Stringman (both allegedly Young on
Stills, but that’s a generally held fan assumption, not a true admittance from
Neil) and Hippie Dream (allegedly Young on Crosby), not to mention the
till-recently unreleased King Of The Mountain (Crosby on Stills). Added
to this mix are Nash’s Chicago (which is a plea to ‘brothers’ Stills and
Young to join Crosby and Nash for a gig on behalf of the Chicago Seven), plus
two rather oddball Neil Young songs about CSNY as a whole, the hugely
celebrated (but goodness knows why) song Thrasher (where CSN are ‘lost
in crystal canyons’ - a dig at their drug intake from the anti-drug Neil,
perhaps? - and, even less charitably, have ‘become deadweight to me’) and
The Old Homestead (where CSN memorably become wizened old vultures who sing
‘why do you ride that Crazy Horse?’ to Neil’s dream-like narrator). Crosby, the
narrator, portrays himself here as ‘weird Albert’, a rebel who seems to thrive
on danger and stirring up trouble, but one that’s intriguingly far more afraid
of being caught by the ‘law’ than his laidback colleagues. Stills is Eli, a man
described as being ‘mean and young, from the South’, who wins over many friends
through his talent but also creates many enemies thanks to his hot temper. Nash
is ‘Duke the Dynamiter’, usually the diplomatic one but in the story he
inadvertently stirs up a squabble between the group when he falls in love with
the ‘Indian girl’ first befriended by Eli. Young meanwhile is, err, ‘young
Billy’ (bit of a clue there) who doesn’t have much of a role to play except
looking on bemused, rather like his part in CSNY in real life. Following the
rift called by the Indian girl – presumably Rita Cootlidge, the girl who really
did help split up the four-some by leaving long-term(ish) partner Stills for a
short-term fling with Nash - the group get careless, quarrelling amongst
themselves instead of looking out for the real enemies searching for them, and
the quartet are betrayed by the ‘Indian Girl’ when she turns out to be an
under-cover cop. In Crosby’s view the girl wasn’t an innocent by-stander who
got caught up in CSNY’s messy squabble, she was ‘the law’ of human averages,
the ‘law’ that something will always come along and break up relationships as
fragile as the quartet’s. Enjoyed for years as a fun, rocking romp through some
Western-style imagery, this song has for many fans now taken on a completely
new meaning, especially Eli’s temper that sees him lose his cool and nearly
kill his comrades out of anger and Crosby’s narrator’s helpless horror at how
his close gang of friends who were going to save the world has disintegrated so
badly and so suddenly they can’t even save themselves (I can’t say I’d ever
noticed this before, but have any of you readers ever noticed how close this
song is to reggae? I’ve just interrupted this review to tape something on the
radio and heard one of those typically gormless 90s re-treads of ‘proper’ 70s
reggae and I’d swear when I got up the stairs that this track was following
exactly the same jerky rhythmical pattern and staccato swing).
After all that sumptuous noise, it’s a relief to get
back to one of the many Crosby meditative instrumentals that flit through this
album. [55] Tampalpais
High (At About Three) is one of Crosby’s better wordless songs, with
his multi-tracked soaring vocals making their actually quite tricky flight over
the backing track sound free and easy. The song has two main inspirations: a
mountain in Crosby’s old home area of Tampalpais, L.A. where he went to
meditate alone quite often in the months following Christine’s death and the
name of his old high school, where Crosby would spend the first few minutes
after school (at about three o’clock) chatting up the girls from his
neighbouring classes. Unlike most instrumentals – but like most of Crosby’s, it
has to be said – the song does not get dull or boring without its words because
there is just so much going on for the listener to concentrate on – the tricky
harmonies of the vocals, the rumbling predictable bass riff set against some
improvised and contrastingly unpredictable guitar yelps and the song structure
that somehow finds its way back into the opening riff every so often despite
travelling many miles away from home for most of the song.
Side one of the original album then ends with [56] Laughing. One of the
most perfect songs written by anybody anywhere at anytime, it may well be my
favourite individual song on the whole of this list – some claim, as readers
who have ruined their eyesight by studying all the other pages around it will
agree. Laughing is a magnificently haunting creation, with a perfectly
delivered performance from both Crosby and multiple guests, full of ‘crying’
Jerry Garcia pedal steel, hypnotic acoustic guitars and layers of sumptuous
harmony. The lyrics are also profound and thought-provoking without being
pretentious or preachy. Crosby thinks, time and time again, in verse after
verse, that his life-long search is over and he has finally found the ‘answer’
to life he has been searching for, the ‘key’ that will finally unlock the mysteries
and lead him to know why life is so complicated, so strange and so
unpredictable. Time and again he tells us that he thinks he has found the truth
– only to find once more that he is mistaken. ‘A man who said he knew a man
what was going on’ proves to be only a ‘stranger’, seeking answers to questions
that the narrator has never even thought to ask, causing confusion rather than
the enlightenment he expects. A ‘light to guide me through my nights and all
this darkness’ turns out to be a ‘reflection of a shadow’, a misguided tonic
that seems built out of fear rather than salvation. A special someone
(presumably Christine again, whose character is hiding in all the songs with
lyrics on this album) then seems to provide the answers that the narrator wants
to hear, but even this turns out to be a mirage, the only truthful sound the
narrator ever hears is that of a ‘child laughing in the sun’. Thinking the
noise is the closest to the ‘truth’ of the human race he is ever likely to
hear, Crosby leaves it at that, playing out the song on a wondrous extended
coda, full of sighing double-tracked Joni Mitchells, David’s elder brother
Ethan and a Jerry Garcia pedal steel solo at his most heart-breaking.
Interestingly, while compiling this website, I came across a quote of Crosby’s
that I’d not heard before which said that he had written this song partly to
warn his old Byrds-era friend George Harrison away from his blinding devotion
to the Maharshi (see ** The White Album), warning him off putting all his
spiritual eggs in one basket without trying to clip his devotional wings
entirely or stop him looking for ‘answers’. Spiritual, melodic, laidback,
moving, and - with droned guitars throughout and other Eastern flourishes on
top - this song is a close cousin to Harrison’s 1970s work, but generally
speaking has a much broader-minded and questioning soul at its heart
(Harrison’s songs tend to be about whether the narrator has the courage to
‘accept’ what he knows in his heart to be true—Crosby’s narrators by comparison
never come close to finding the truth, no matter how far they search). A
fantastic aching, restless song, there is much about to recommend about Laughing,
both in its clever construction and the note-prefect playing throughout. The
most typical David Crosby piece on the record (both in its unusual open tunings
and its ‘what the hell is going on?’ lyrics), Laughing is a true 100
carat gold album archive masterpiece and a true ‘catchy but deep’ triumph.
Side two and [57] 'What Are Their
Names?' seems to start off innocently with a gentle fade in on a
repetitive guitar lick, doodled by Crosby during a recording session. However
as more and more musicians gradually join in (Neil Young and Jerry Garcia on
more guitars, the Grateful Dead’s Phil Lesh on bass and Michael Shrieve on
drums) and – inspired by Crosby’s lick – add their own unrehearsed parts, the
song builds quickly into an anthem, a good example of the closeness and
telepathy felt by the West Coast players of the period. Left untouched for
weeks while Crosby worked out what to do with it, the singer suddenly thought
of the song’s two brief verses while on a plane trip and hurriedly wrote them
down, finding later that they fitted the middle part of this track spot-on. As
angry and caustic as CSNY ever were, this is the sound of Crosby and friends
pointing their fingers not at the politicians running the country this time but
the unknown powers they see pulling on their strings, the un-named and
un-mentioned businesses, warmongers and gangsters who have always had a heavy
impact on so-called democracy, whatever the country, whatever the period. The
power and indignation of this song is extraordinary, especially the way the
song builds up so quietly from its innocent sounding introduction without you
really noticing until the vocals suddenly kick in and the chance to hear some
of the finest musicians of the period playing against each other is a sound to
behold. However, the masterstroke of the song is the hastily over-dubbed
chorus, an ad hoc decision taken after several of Crosby’s friends happened to
drop in on the album sessions un-announced, causing the engineers to switch
from recording guitar overdubs to pristine vocals in a matter of seconds while
the idea was still hot. Various members of the Dead, CSNY and the Airplane
families can be heard here (Grace Slick’s soaring, strident vocal is
particularly recognisable) and the resulting verses sit so snugly over their
note-perfect backing that it’s hard to believe this song wasn’t carefully
planned from the outset. There was definitely something powerful lurking in the
air on these album sessions and this last-minute coup, like much of the LP
cobbled together at the last minute as sudden inspiration struck, is perhaps
the greatest example of that magical telepathy.
Switching gears once
more, [58] Traction In
The Rain is another of Crosby’s gloriously
fragile songs, full of elusive words and imagery that sound like they mean
something but probably don’t and set to one of its creators’ most gorgeous and
delicate melodies. One of the most ethereal and downright beautiful songs its
author ever wrote, its lyrics are also typically Crosby – listening to critics
who tell him that human beings have ‘progressed’ and are destined to work 9-5,
in smoky cramped cities, while waging war on each other over minute
differences, Crosby simply points to the beautiful girls on his shoulder and
leaves without firing up to the argument. Inspired by a heckler who walked up
to Crosby while he out walking with his friends and equally pioneering fellow
musicians Joan Baez and Joni Mitchell and attacked them for their
outspoken-ness and hippie ideals, this is Cros once again putting forward his
manifesto of ‘peace’ and scratching his head over why everybody else seems to
be picking on him out of jealously for leading the sort of unconventional life
that he thinks they all secretly want to be living for themselves (this is the
t-shirt ‘turning green’ in envy of the ‘turtle doves’ or peace-makers,
according to Crosby’s later analysis of the song). However, while many of
Crosby’s other politically-charged songs of the period sound hot-headed and
emotional, Traction In The Rain is so musically fragile that far from
beating us around the head with the message, it sounds as if the great hippie
dream is as about to break any minute (as indeed it was) and Crosby is doing
everything he can to hold on top the beauty he sees in the world before things
get ugly. Astonishingly pretty, not to mention pretty powerful, this is Crosby
again at his peak again but showing off quite a different set of skills this
time around.
[51b] Song With No Words – or Tree With No Leaves
as Nash half-jokingly began calling it – is another of Crosby’s instrumentals
with some great wordless scatting by lots of Crosbys, with the power of
Crosby’s songwriting muse stripped back to its bare-bones essence. Many fans
think this song is the best on the album, but to these ears it lacks the punchy
power or vocal finesse of the other instrumentals on this album, for once
sounding like a lyric would benefit rather than detract from the song. The
performance is also rather sluggish compared to the technically rougher but
emotionally superior recording on the CSN box-set, where the song comes alive
courtesy of some sublime harmonies from Graham Nash. Understandably, Crosby
decided to go with a ‘solo’ version for this ‘solo’ record, but you do wish
that he’d listened to his own advice of using his friends’ skills wherever he
possibly could – or kept the song back for the Crosby-Nash collaborations that
were just around the corner.
[59] Orleans
is a similarly slight, multi-tracked acoustic version of an old folk song Paul
Kantner taught Crosby after remembering it from his childhood learning how to
play the guitar. A French song similar to Oranges and Lemons listing the
names of Cathedrals, the idea is never quite developed properly on this
recording, but the two-minutes we do get is spine-chilling, with about a dozen
Crosby’s singing four separate parts three times over. Unnerving and beautiful
all at the same time, the song gives Cros the chance to show off some of his
fine and under-rated guitar playing, another skill that really comes into its
own on this album after years of working with supposedly finer guitarists like
Roger McGuinn, Stephen Stills and Neil Young.
The closer [60] I’d Swear There Was Somebody Here, meanwhile, is equally
bare and doesn’t even feature anything except Crosby’s mournful vocals. With
lots off his overdubbed voices running a capella hither and thither seemingly
on a whim, this short 90-second burst of heartbreak and inspiration is a
confusing but powerful way to end the album. We never knew it at the time, but
Crosby’s loss of his girlfriend hurt him more than words could say so here is
the closest Crosby can get to putting his grief on record. In a split-second
decision that engineer Stephen Bancard recalls as coming ‘like a bolt out of
the blue’ the singer lets his emotions run riot in a desperate, mournful wail
that very suddenly dies away unexpectedly, the singer’s emotions spent. Very
similar to Brian Wilson’s Smile opener Our Prayer but in reverse
(this song is saying ‘goodbye’ to us unhappily, not ‘hello’ to us with bursting
joy), this song is a similar mix of 60s psychedelia and 16th
century madrigal, with the multiple Crosbys sounding like a group of
particularly mournful Benedictine monks (Maybe it really is a group of
Benedictine monks regrouping one last time; let’s face it there’s lots of
really odd things going on in this LP!) With the possible exception of John
Lennon, no musician on this list ever let their emotions show as readily as
Crosby did and – like many a Lennon solo album – there’s no pretence going on
in this track, just Crosby sounding lost among the layers of unrehearsed harmonies
running through this track, as if he is calling to his fiancé as a ghost from
his world, desperately seeking her spirit out and unable to come to terms with
the fact the two are no longer together.
No other album would dare to end with such a track,
but then If Only I Could Remember My Name is not like other albums.
Teasing, serious, full of deeply complex words and unorthodox styles and guitar
tunings, it is a balanced, deeply-felt album that sounds like no other ever
made. Critics of the time called it ‘self indulgent’, moaning at Crosby’s lack
of lyrics, the use of no less than three instrumentals on only a nine-track
album and the fact that an eight-minute track takes up such a large amount of
the album’s scant 38 minutes. In contrast, modern critics say it is too
‘selfless’ an album, that Crosby lets his friends and special guests take over
parts that the singer could have done solo, with the album sleeve going so far
as to grant all these extra stars their own photographs, each ‘guest’ granted a
picture that on the original LP were each the same size as Crosby’s own. For
those of us in the know, however, this is a very special album and one destined
to astound and influence listeners away from the mainstream long after other
albums have been forgotten. A truly hidden treasure, I’d swear there was
somebody here in the room with me whenever I play it, so strong is Crosby’s
vision and so powerful the emotions he evokes. This is music stripped back to
its barest, unstructured essence—and it sounds all the better for it.
A Now Complete List Of CSN/Y and Solo Articles Available To Read At Alan’s Album Archives:
'Crosby, Stills and Nash' (1969) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-29-crosby-stills-and-nash-1969.html
'Deja Vu' (CSNY) (1970) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-34-crosby-stills-nash-and-young.html
‘Stephen Stills’ (1970) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2012/12/stephen-stills-1970.html
'If Only I Could Remember My Name' (Crosby) (1971) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-45-david-crosby-if-only-i-could.html
'Songs For Beginners' (Nash) (1971) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-46-graham-nash-songs-for.html
'Stephen Stills II' (1971) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-48-stephen-stills-ii-1971.html
‘Graham Nash, David
Crosby’ (1972) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2012/09/graham-nash-david-crosby-1972.html
'Stephen Stills-Manassas' (1972)http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-51-stephen-stillsmanassas-1972.html
'Wild Tales' (Nash) (1973) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2010/09/news-views-and-music-issue-75-graham.html
'Stephen Stills-Manassas' (1972)http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-51-stephen-stillsmanassas-1972.html
'Wild Tales' (Nash) (1973) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2010/09/news-views-and-music-issue-75-graham.html
'Down The Road' (Stephen
Stills/Manassas) (1973) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2014/10/stephen-stillsmanassas-down-by-road-1973.html
'Stills' (1975) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2012/05/review-65-stephen-stills-stills-1975.html
'Wind On The Water' (Crosby-Nash) (1975) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-67-crosby-nash-wind-on-water.html
'Stills' (1975) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2012/05/review-65-stephen-stills-stills-1975.html
'Wind On The Water' (Crosby-Nash) (1975) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-67-crosby-nash-wind-on-water.html
'Illegal Stills' (Stills)
(1976)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2015/08/stephen-stills-illegal-stills-1976.html
'Whistling Down The Wire'
(Crosby-Nash) (1976)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2016/01/david-crosby-graham-nash-whistling-down.html
'Long May You Run' (Stills-Young) (1976) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2009/05/news-views-and-music-issue-33-stills.html
'CSN' (1977) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-70-crosby-stills-and-nash-csn.html
'Long May You Run' (Stills-Young) (1976) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2009/05/news-views-and-music-issue-33-stills.html
'CSN' (1977) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/07/review-70-crosby-stills-and-nash-csn.html
'Thoroughfare Gap'
(Stills) (1978) http://www.alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2014/04/stephen-stills-thoroughfare-gap-1978.html
'Earth and Sky' (Nash)
(1980)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2015/09/graham-nash-earth-and-sky-1980.html
'Daylight Again' (CSN) (1982) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2012/01/news-views-and-music-issue-131-crosby.html
'Daylight Again' (CSN) (1982) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2012/01/news-views-and-music-issue-131-crosby.html
'Right By You' (Stills)
(1984) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2016/03/stephen-stills-right-by-you-1984.html
'Innocent Eyes' (Nash)
(1986)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.com/2017/01/graham-nash-innocent-eyes-1986.html
'American Dream' (CSNY)
(1988) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/crosby-stills-nash-and-young-american.html
'Oh Yes I Can!' (Crosby)
(1989)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.com/2016/07/david-crosby-oh-yes-i-can-1989.html
'Live It Up!' (CSN) (1989) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2011/07/news-viedws-and-music-issue-104-crosby.html
'Live It Up!' (CSN) (1989) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2011/07/news-viedws-and-music-issue-104-crosby.html
'Stephen Stills Alone'
(1991)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.nl/2016/09/stephen-stills-alone-1991.html
'A Thousand Roads'
(Crosby) (1993) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.com/2017/02/david-crosby-thousand-roads-1993.html
‘After The Storm’ (CSN)
(1994) https://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2017/12/the-final-review-crosby-stills-and-nash.html
'CPR' (Crosby Band) (1998)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2015/06/cpr-david-crosby-band-1998.html
'Looking Forward' (1999) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2015/01/crosby-stills-nash-and-young-looking.html
‘So Like Gravity (CPR,
2001)
https://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2017/07/cpr-just-like-gravity-2001.html
‘Songs For Survivors’ (2002) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2017/05/graham-nash-songs-for-survivors-2002.html
‘Songs For Survivors’ (2002) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2017/05/graham-nash-songs-for-survivors-2002.html
'Crosby*Nash' (2004) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2010/02/news-views-and-music-issue-21-crosby.html
‘Man Alive’ (S) (2005) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2017/03/stephen-stills-man-alive-2005.html
'Deja Vu Live' (CD) (2008) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008/08/news-views-and-music-issue-1-crosby.html
'Deja Vu Live' (DVD) (2008) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2008_09_21_archive.html
'Reflections' (Graham Nash Box Set) (2009) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2009/02/news-views-and-music-issue-22-graham.html
'Demos' (CSN) (2009) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2009/08/news-views-and-music-issue-41-crosby.html
'Manassas: Pieces' (2010) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2010/01/news-views-and-music-issue-52-manassas.html
‘Carry On’ (Stephen Stills Box Set) (2013) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/stephen-stills-carry-on-box-set-2013.html
'Croz' (Crosby) (2014) http://www.alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/david-crosby-croz-2014album-review.html
'CSNY 74' (Recorded 1974 Released 2014)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2014/07/crosby-stills-nash-and-young-csny-74.html
'This Path Tonight' (Nash) (2016) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2016/05/graham-nash-this-path-tonight-2016.html
'Lighthouse' (Crosby)
(2016) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2016/12/david-crosby-lighthouse-2016.html
‘Sky Trails’ (Crosby)
(2017) https://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2017/10/david-crosby-sky-trails-2017.html
‘Here
If You Listen’ (Crosby) https://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.com/2018/10/david-crosby-and-friends-here-if-you.html
The Best Unreleased CSNY
Recordings http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2014/06/csny-best-unreleased-tracks-news-views.html
Surviving TV Appearances (1969-2009) http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2015/03/csny-surviving-tv-appearances-1969-09.html
Non-Album Recordings (1962-2009)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2015/04/crosby-stills-nash-and-sometimes-young_6.html
Live/Compilation/Rarities Albums Part One
(1964-1980)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2015/04/crosby-stills-nash-and-sometimes-young.html
Live/Compilations/Rarities
Albums Part Two (1982-2012)
http://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2015/04/crosby-stills-nash-and-sometimes-young_20.html
Essay: The Superest Of
Super Groups?
https://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2018/01/csny-essay-superest-of-super-groups.html
Five Landmark Concerts and
Three Key Cover Versions
https://alansalbumarchives.blogspot.co.uk/2018/02/csny-five-landmark-concerts-and-three.html
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